6th Dec 2008

My cousin sister was born in the morning yesterday!

description:
cute, small, quiet

feel happy for my aunt;D
what's her name what's her name! haha

leng
11.50pm
7th Dec 2008

GOSH

I went to a crystal house on friday with cousins, auntie and mum.

Purpose: To buy crystal

Outcome: Get a job

Expected feeling: Happy

Unexpected feeling: Sad, boring, tired, etc



My first ever part time job

Working experience:



Day 1 ( Sat):

supposed to start at 10.30am;

reached at 10.10am, thought of arriving early to leave a positive impression;

boss reached at 11.10am and opened the shop;

waited beside Body Glove until the arival of boss, SWEAT..;

lunch at 1.10pm;

food damn expensive in the food court but no choice;

nothing much i've done in the shop for the first day;

went back at 7.xx pm.



Day 2 (Sun):

supposed to start at 10.30am;

reached at 10.15am;

walked around with mum for 15minutes;

pulled a chair and waited outside of the crystal house;

lagi CHAM;

boss arrived at 11.35am and opened the shop, SWEAT..;

lunch at 2.10pm (next time MUST ask by myself, they must have forgotten about my lunch, SWEAT);

lunch at food court again;

ordered fried yee mee but got 'mun' yee mee instead, no point arguing as my limited lunch time didnt allow;

expensive:( just like day 1;

second day in the shop...

a little bit happy when ~ was asked to wipe the wooden cupboard and so on;

a little bit more unhappy when ~ customer asked and i didnt know anything;

very sad when ~ had nothing to do and not asked to do anything;
super sad when ~ sitting there and start dreaming;

went back at 7.25pm (supposed to be at 7pm)

it was raining EXTREMELY heavily when i was heading back. Perhaps...im a LITTLE pitiful...



GOSH! it is such a nightmare holiday. since now on, i've got to work everday except for wednesday and friday, which are reserved for learning computer. SAD:'(

im so tired.



PLEASE!! End it up fast!

omg..



Leng

11.31pm

7th Dec 2008

Confused

Cousins are leaving to Australia next week. Meeting them very often these days. Having dinner together every Saturday is going to be a history. It's undeniable that that always makes me feel proud. I've learnt how to play mahjong these few days because of them. My youngest cousin SamSam would miss them tremendously, i bet. Buntong would be as quiet as cemetery every saturday night. My grandpa and grandma would also miss them much.

Few years later Vincent may not remember how to speak cantonise and there may be difficulties in communication with grandpa and grandma, ahah! He may need a translator...who knows?!

Three of them may have some physical changes the next time we meet.

Always want to be more independent but......

Will i always be lonely after departing to Australia?

Always wishing that someone would willing to be my good friend...because....lacking of it...?

Stressed...

Confused..

Leng

12.56am

5th Dec 2008

Unavoidable Hatred

Why does this kind of person exist in this world. If she doesnt exist, he wouldnt be existed, subsequently i wouldnt be born. I dont want to see this person anymore, please get yourself lost as soon as possible. She's the person i hate most. Keep your mouth shut or i'll stick it with elephant glu. Enough. Stop talking nonsense. Stop annoying everyone of us. Everyone is suffering because of her. Creating problems is her only hobby.

Why. Why couldnt i have a family which is fulled of love. The presence of her makes me hate myself. Feeling ashamed of myself. I've got no manners but i dont feel like changing my attitude towards her as she's too bad a person. I hate her. Having mind which is fulled with hatred will bring myself unhappiness but i just couldnt resist to hate her.

Wanna run away. Get myself away from this. Would it affect my personality and dreams. Establishing a family with lots of love is always my biggest dream. Please. I wish that my dreams come true. Let me be a better person is it okay. Please='(

Leng

12.09am

2nd Dec 2008

Love That I'm Thirsting For

I lost my first post. Accidently deleted. Spent few hours writing about my besties. SOB. Not going to type it out again. No one can help me to retrieve the post. )'=

Anyway. Continue writing about other incidents.
Met some people yesterday. A guy. The way he treats his sisters. That has really made me feel envious. How wonderful if i have a brother like this. I can feel the powerful of love between them. They are just like friends. I wonder how their parents treat them at home. Must be extremely warm. How nice if i could know more about them. Wonderful people(=

Saw my mum standing beside another teacher, who was her former classmate. My mum is a lot more prettier, of course. However, what i notice was that she has become older. I always want to grow up a little faster so that i'll be more mature in thinking. However, i stopped thinking about that when i realise that if i grow up fast my mum would be older and older. I don't want that to happen. Maybe im still extremely dependent on her. I don't want to deny about that. She's always the first one to support me. I love her but i have yet to tell her. I wrote to her but not telling face to face. I don't want to procrastinate or else i may be regret. But....a lot of buts....undefined....=( I'm too bad. Defeated by shyness. Why.

Leng
1.46am
1st Dec 2008

Best Friends

My first post. I've just read my best friends' blogs. Listening to some soothing korean musics while enjoying the posts they've written months ago. Not too late starting with my very first blog, a proper one. Not the same as my friendster blog.

Before this, i've actually read about the benefits of blogging from one of the exercises given by my esl lecturer. one of the most important points is to improve my english. at least, i get to express better and get used to many vocabularies that are seemed to be rather easy and common to you but not me.

alright, first of all. Let's introduce to you my besties. Guess what i've listed them out during my exam period while i was TOOO bored of studying. Kinda childish right. But it's fun! Really! It makes me understand that i need to appreciate and treat them better. All the good friends that i have listed out.

One my besties. A special friend. Extremely special. We've got same interest, same view towards most of various aspects. She's my best ever friend. Simple and elegant. Flower girl. She gave me a lot of support and encouragement, shared with me regarding her love life, family happenings, her beloved sister and of course her studies. She knows me. I don't know me ==' heehee

~wish~our friendship lasts FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER(=

~give me a tight embrace before i leave)'=

~please get a webcam, I WANNA SEE YOU OFTEN ONCE I LEAVE

~PLEASE REMEMBER ME BECAUSE I'LL REMEMBER YOU FOREVER

~shopping with me^^

~sing with me

oh my goodness.....

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another best friend. Orange girl. A sweet girl that is becoming more and more different from her past. She's becoming more active. Not studying like nerd already:p She's full of enthusiasm in learning, always. She's cute and straight forward. She speaks what she thinks. I like her because she's always interested in me. She asked questions about me. Always feel happy with that. WHEEEE^^Like friends that like me.

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Both of them studying in Form 6 currently. Sitting next to each other. Competing silently HEEHEEE~~ Sometimes when we're far apart, gaps would be developed. Not knowing what to tell when we meet each other after some time. However, friends, please just keep in touch. That's too important to me.

~Never mention 'LOVE' unless you really do. For me that's a powerful word. It would bring a lot of changes in my life. I save the word for those i really love.

leng

12.55am

1st Dec 2008